I need to get my head checked

I have been honestly contemplating moving home with my parents after my lease is up. My pro/con list has flip-flopped so much its making my head spin... but the pros are starting to come through, mostly in the form of dollar signs. Dollar signs in my bank account.

Pros

• free food
• free-ish rent (this apparently is pending, wtf mom)
  
• free good wine
• free internet/bills
  
• free netflix
• free cat food/litter
  
• 2 more kitties <3
• laundry service
• neighbors need a babysitter often... extra $$
• yoga studio 2 blocks away
• clean roommates
• saving tons of cash for future rent in grad school city.... huge pro
  

Cons

• no cable
• no privacy
• my old room. womp.
• smallest closet of all time
  
• parents allll the time
• nagging
• longer commute to work
• needless & annoying questions
• I'm freakin 24
• I like my freedom and alone time

is this really happening? am I actually considering this!? I need a CAT scan, MRI... brain transplant.

I have until July, I'll just wait for a better offer to arise. Crossing my fingers, now.

the itch

I need something new and fabulous in my life.

New job- Check!

That's not completely cutting it. Its time to move, though that will probably not happen for another YEAR, I'm already mentally packing, checking out apartments on craigslist and preparing to haul my wardrobe across the country. Womp.

It would also be helpful to win the lottery/find a sugar daddy. So once I get to New York I can have some fun!

Accepting sugar daddy applications now. Gay men looking to spoil a fun girl with all the gossip, please apply.

Maybe I'll meet a handsome doctor type at my new job (one week from FRIDAY! YAY!) who will be completely dedicated to their job, just looking to make some poor CNA happy by paying rent on a fab apartment. and he isn't interested in the physical relationship, since Blaine would frown on that hahaha

wtf throat

So I've been in bed for the last 3 days. Taking pulls of Nyquil and napping endlessly with my kitties. I still feel like C. R. A. P.

So I went to the doctor today. Only to spend $25 on my co-pay and them to tell me it wasn't strep. DUH, I knew that, I was hoping for some extra strength numbing cough syrup. Nothing. Billshit.

Upside: I did muster up enough energy to quit my job yesterday! yay! April 9th at 4:30 I'm free from that hell forever!

Downside: I start my new job on Friday the 10th. WOMP no time to celebrate.

Either way, I need to get healthy like RIGHT NOW so I can enjoy my Saturday drinking beer while watching my Ducks kill some smelly Beavers at Baseball in PGE park! I'm crossing my fingers.

WOOOOT!!!

I GOT THE TRANSPLANT/ABDOMINAL SURGERY/PLASTICS JOB!!!!

Putting in my 2 weeks tomorrow :-)

Too bad I stayed home sick from work today otherwise I would have done it the second it was official I got the job!!!

YAY!!

Flower Power

Spring has sprung. But only in the form of these precious daffodils from my parents yard. I had to take 2 bokays because fresh flowers just make me happy. I spent 2 hours on Saturday weeding my front yard/strip of dirt to plant some wildflower seeds I got, I'm still sore and I can't wait to have cute little springy colors covering my yard! Seriously, I haven't been this sore in a long time, gardening is a great workout for the ass, inner thigh and lower back, its been days and I still can't move with out an ache!

Rain, rain, go away....

I can't wait for summer! (since we all know spring is still too rainy)

How to make a grown woman cry.

So I dress myself for work, not particularly nice, but about 19286956872583579238749625 times nicer than everyone else who works here. I like looking nice, being slightly fashionable (I dont want to waste anything too good on these people) and not wearing the same 4 shirts all week.

Through this job search bullshit I didn't forget the detail of what I will be required to wear, but I didn't put that much thought to it.

If you have ever warn scrubs you know how incredibly sexy, fashionable and form fitting they are. vom. So my plan of action: get cute scrubs so you don't look like a bloated blueberry everyday. This is what I've found so far... these were under FASHION TOPS...

This isn't TOOOO BAD compared to the square tops (which i have 2 of already), but in NO WAY is it good. I'm going to stick with solids. and with those that match my purple stethoscope.

I'm fashioning a noose out of my computer cords right now. 5 days a week, 7-3:30.

However my hope is to still rise above coworkers in scrub style (is that an oxymoron?) , since they probably go to WM to get the discount devil scrubs that are a square with arm holes and rectangle cut in half for pants. Paying extra is worth it if I can have a waist. and boobs. and pants that are the right fucking legenth- which is SO important- otherwise the crotch is at your knees to keep the pants just at the top of the sexy nursing shoe.

Welcome to the GLAMEROUS LIFE of a certified nursing slave.

Reminder: Never order anything in unisex. it will be ugly and fit nothing. aka elastic waist scrub pants..... ugh, its a damn good thing these things are the most comfortable uniform ever!

Living Situations

Even though my lease isn't up until July, I feel that it will sneak up on me and I will be left with my stuff in a pile in front of my house, cats doing back flips in their kennel and me on the phone with my mom saying I have to move back in. god no.

that said, the new (still potential job- FUCKING CALL ME PLEASE) job pays less, much less, than my current crap job in HELL, but I need to take that plunge. I don't want to move home because I might kill my parents for getting all up in my business... after I've been free for over a year and a half i can't go back... but I would save mega money. UGH!

Ideal situation: find a place to live (that isn't total shit) for about $400-$450 a month... which is nothing... on the west side, close to work and school.

I need a sugar daddy.

LOVES IT!!!

Lady Gaga... does it get any better!!!



Ob-FREAKIN'-sessed!



you better believe I'm using some of these dance moves at Taylors...

Finals

Finals suck... Womp...

Crossing my fingers I'm ready for tomorrow's microbiology final...

I'm also PRAYING I can pull it together to write my 10 page research proposal about altruistic kidney donation. WHAT was I thinking.

I can't wait for Wednesday, the term will be over and I will again be hopeful about the year ahead... the job offers need to keep pouring in! I'm still crossing my fingers for my dream position at the hospital... BAH and I need to do my taxes! The busy life of an 'adult' never ends.

When will I have a moment to kick back with my kitties and drink a glass of wine guilt free? WHEN!?

playing make believe

While the cold I have avoided all winter finally started to pull me under into a potentially sickly and incredibly unproductive weekend, I realized it was sunny today. Spring sunny. HURRAY! Then I remembered that my FAVORITE side job is right around the corner, modeling in Joe Bussink workshops. Besides being one of the warmest and friendly men on earth, he is an amazingly talented photographer of the stars. Some of my personal favorites are Christina Applegate, Fred Savage, Christina Aguilera, Rebecca Romijn & Jerry O'Connell and Jenny McCarthy. His style of photography is so great, its no wonder why established photographers pay a pretty penny to come spend just a few days with him in Sandy, OR.


Here are a few examples of what Joe's workshops acheive. He teaches about shooting in the moment... What I've learned is that some moments of me are not-so-cute... haha but I do like these:
I can't wait for another few days of princess dresses, cowboy boots and probably a little rain <3

Being a girly girl once in a while is great after spending a lot of time being a 'dude girl' the rest of the time.

5 tips

Five tips for a woman....

1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.

2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.

3. It is important to find a man you can count on! And doesn't lie to you.

4. It is important that a man loves you and spoils you.

5. It is important that these four men don't know each other.

a letter to the people who annoy me.

Dear coworker/random dude on the street/class mate/etc.,

Stop trying to fuck up everything and please stop pissing me off.

Thanks.

Sincerely,

Kristina

PS when you talk to yourself out loud, no one cares, and when you fart, everyone is disgusted.

from crazy to insane.

job offer #1 good to go.
job offer #2 complicated by internal bull shit because of the hiring freeze.

question of the day: do I take door #1 now, or wait a week to see if door #2 officially opens for me?

#2 is what i want to do. surgical awesomeness.

CRAPOLA!

Fun Fun Fun in the Sun Sun Sun

Can you hear that? It's California is calling my name.

Sun.

Surf.

Sand.

June will include a fun, relaxing and long weekend in Santa Monica with some pals :-)

Rollerblading, bike riding and surfing. I'm so flippin' EXCITED!

Next step... Picking a date and buying tickets... minor details

Now to plan a quick trip to Vegas in August. Get some free drink, fab tans and endless VIP passes <3 Who's in?!

pure, unabashed excitement!!!

By now I should know that everything happens for a reason, however every time something happens and confirms this for me I acknowledge it and seem to forget shortly thereafter.

So once again, I am astounded how the world works. In confusing, dramatic, and sometimes annoying ways everything eventually falls into place. My newest example: I GOT A JOB OFFER!!! Putting in time at a job that makes me miserable, so incredibly depressed and just going through the motions for the last 9 months, has finally paid off!

If I were more impulsive I would have quit this stupid job months ago, but my rational brain (and parents, oh and my shopping habits) figured it would be best to get another job before hitting the poor house. However, due to the current economic bullshit, I've been applying for jobs since NOVEMBER, and just got my first interview last week. Patience, patience, patience.

Here comes the ironic part: Job offer #1 in Adult Oncology, brand new unit in OHSU, state of the art, beautiful views, all the things a hospital should be for those chronically ill. Despite all this, cancer isn't really my cup of tea. The strangest part... I knew the woman who interviewed me, since I was probably 3 years old. We didn't realize this until we saw each other and it was like some freaky Friday deja vu. So going into that unit would be great, having a familar face from the start, but she also knows my mom. I don't need my job performcance relayed to my parents... no thanks!

Job offer #2 is expected later today, the nurse from job #1 basically told me it was my choice since they discussed me and just want me to succeed- I love the medical field :-) This job is in transplant, abdominal surgery and plastics. It isn't a glamorus new unit, but it is a field of medicine I am extremely interested. From currently working in transplant medicine (Transplant medicine, this is Kristina... blah blah blah...) in a boring desk position, to the transition to of patient care and the exact opposite end of the transplant process, I'm actually thrilled to have an actual impact, see the people I send things to, do paper work for, type medical reports on!!! FINALLY!

Coolest part? I will get to ride the tram every day! I need to get more scrubs, since the ones I have are total crap, and I'm soooo excited not to have to deal with the idiots I am forced to deal with everyday! WOOOO HOOOOO!!!

Offically putting my 2 weeks in... TOMORROW!

I finally see the light!!!

optimism

I finally feel a optimistic. Its been a while, considering crappy weather, classes wearing me down, work ruining my life, etc, I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.

• Actually getting a job interview at an amazing place will lift my spirits any day, hence my happiness on Friday and my hopeful attitude this weekend and in the following week! Still crossing my fingers!

• Week 9 is here, projects are finally being started and completed and finally checked off my To Do list... yay crunch time! I'm soooo over this term.

• America's Next Top Model starts this week... even though I'll be in class giving an awesome oral presentation on MRSA... I freakin LOVE that show! Too bad Tyra is a crazy biotch.

• I haven't seen any sign of rodents in my house for almost a week! YAY! My problem solving skills strike again!

• The man boy is good, things are good, life is good... and spring is right around the corner!
  

I'm so happy to be back to normal, being sad, annoyed with life and generally pessimistic is not my normal demeanor. Now if I can only find the time to go to yoga in the next week before the next binge drinking episode I would be as happy as a clam!